I took this photograph shortly after the small tin piano-shaped music box on top of the buffet shelf began playing its song, after several years of sitting silently. The music box formerly belonged to my deceased mother (who happens to be pictured beside the piano with my late father).
I’m a bit bewildered by small, spooky occurrences of late, that resonate with sentiment.
I’ve experienced three such happenings lately.
Now, feminist scholars of 19th century literature, especially written by women,
inform us that sentiment ain’t a bad thing, culturally speaking.
Uncle Tom’s Cabin was the feminine John Brown, they might argue.
Yes, I get that.
But a recent afternoon I was browsing through Tocqueville’s Democracy in America,
feeling burnt and wired, after a lousy night’s sleep.
Then, I hear a slight tinkling, teasing my brain.
I walk into the dining room…
I’ll be damned if it ain’t my late mother’s piano-shaped music box
that’s sat on the buffet silently for a couple of years.
Suddenly, it’s playing its tinny little heart out, a few feet away
from the cassette tape of my eulogy of father Norm’s funeral,
which appeared, out of nowhere, not long ago right on the bookshelf.
The piano’s melody is touching but sappy: “We’ve Only just Begun” by Paul Williams,
which…The Carpenters nailed together into a hit.
The piano’s song “began” a few years ago
when I first wound the tin piano up,
shortly after Sharon’s funeral. I let it play out —
or so I thought — then eventually set it down in the dining room.
Now I’m compelled to ponder Sharon’s affection for the melody, a sunny C major chord
which takes a striking modulation to seven successive minor chords
offset by one E Major 7. The minors help “sell” such sappy lines as “white lace and
promises…” The wide intervals of the phrases do as well.
So, Williams had a craftsman’s command of music.
And now the dippy lyrics nag at my brain
though I wanted to read more of what Tocqueville had to say
about “the people” informing the intelligentsia,
with his certain faith that American people
were fairly intelligent.
My own Tocquevillian faith in “the people” is tested regularly,
as much as my faith in a higher power,
but I seem to persist in such battered, residual beliefs,
still simmering in the petrie dish of my brain.
Rolling Stone lists “We’ve Only Just Begun”
as 405 among The 500 Greatest Songs of All Time.
And to be clear, the Paul Williams who wrote that song
is not the same one who started Crawdaddy magazine,
one of the really seminal rock critics.
If Paul Williams the critic were still alive, it would be interesting
for him to meet with Paul Williams, the soft-rock songwriter
and have them argue whether the song
deserves to be in the all-time top 500.
It’s a pop song. Often played at weddings.
These days I sometimes wish I was 30 years old
and could have Jeffrey Foucault sing his wedding song
“One for Sorrow” (two for joy they say) at my wedding.
It always lifts my spirit. And he writes a hell of a lyric.
But then, how different is Williams’ song than
some of the Tin Pan Alley Songs I’ve played on piano —
plenty romantic, and for Norm and Sharon’s wedding anniversary?
“My One and Only Love” and mom’s fave “Here’s That Rainy Day.”
I feel the heart tug and resist, or do I?
After all, The Carpenters sort of made my skin crawl.
Strange thing is, poltergeists don’t seem to. Not quite yet.
As long as they don’t start tossing furniture around the room
or de-alphabetize my CD library, or turn on an “Addams Family” video and, along with
Boris and Natasha, do a steamy tango with my startled cat (supple Chloe could at least handle the kicks, the boleo, the head snaps and the female’s deep backwards back bend. But I doubt she would dig it. And I’d be “Ghost Busters” spooked.)
But what of the weirdness of these occurrences?
Dad’s eulogy tape surfacing mysteriously a few weeks before mom’s piano plays,
out of the blue?
I shrug it off, sort off.
I’d like Tocqueville to be in the room with those two Paul Williams.
Tocqueville seemed to feel that “we” the people “had only just begun, to live.”
Ditch the “white lace,” expand the lovebirds’ first-person plural to
“We the people…” He wrote a 700-page political science masterpiece
based on America’s “promises.”
It would be a conversation with four writers, if I attended.
I’d prefer not to talk much.
I’d be a Kakfa-esque bug in the corner,
too ugly for anyone to acknowledge.
So, I keep following my psyche through my mid-afternoon Twilight Zones
but also keep thinking and writing because
Norm and Sharon would want me to, I’m sure.
Then, there’s my dead ex-wife Kathy, and the third creepy occurrence — which fit
her impish personality to a T (too complicated to explain here, having to do with a computer screensaver “joke.”)
I’ll just say Kathy, who died in 1999,
was bugging me to finish my long-postponed blog remembrance
of her — by her birthday, which I finally did.
So maybe that’s one spook silenced.
Unless I start pondering the “astrological psychic energy” of birthdays and anniversaries
and of “Occurences at Owl Creek Bridge” yet to come.
The Kathy Naab remembrance is posted here:https://kevernacular.com/?p=1547
- An Occurence at Owl Creek Bridge is a haunting 1890 Civil War story short story by Ambrose Bierce, which was aired in 1964 on The Twilight Zone in a film adaptation. It was actually a black-and-white French film, rivière du hibou, directed by Robert Enrico, and won awards for best short subject at the 1962 Cannes film festival and 1963 Academy Awards.
- The Bierce story’s subtitle is “A Dead Man’s Dream.” I just hope I don’t have a dead man’s dream tonight, or anytime soon. Dad, you can hang onto your dreams, until further notice. Are you listening? Um, hello?
- Suddenly, I feel like Hamlet, the brooding, haunted Dane…
- Now what should I do? What’s this? I just heard a small voice somewhere, whispering, “Psst. Hey dude. Your money or your life.”
- To quote Jack Benny (not Hamlet), “I’m thinking, I’m thinking.”
- p.s. OK, I made up that last “ghostly” quote. As for any of the rest of this blog, (to quote a contemporary “philosopher”) “I did not make that up.”
- HERE “IS AN OCCURRENCE AT OWL CREEK BRIDGE” ON YOU TUBE:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DocXC-kobmU